I have to be, don't I? I don't have time to spazz. And there's nothing I can do about it anyway. [Danny finishes his comment with a wry twist of his lips and a dark expression in his eyes.]
[Donatello relaxes and smiles a bit as well. He didn't realize he had even been tense like that.]
... Heh. A habit--Leo does that sort of stuff, too.
[And so does Don, but Don's in denial about that right now.]
... I miss Master Splinter. And I know he can take care of himself but... Can't help but be worried, you know? And I can't help but miss him, even though I know he's better off at home. You probably feel the same, right?
[She could take care of her self. He knew that. But... there were dangers at home she DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT. It was asking way too much that Vlad would miss out on taking advantage of his absence.]
[Danny's first instinct was to instantly deny everything. But then he remembered. This was Donny. The guy who knew more about him than anyone else in Discedo. And who knew there was something weird about him, but hadn't pushed at all.
...And who he had just promised to stop pushing away so much. Maybe it would be okay to let him know a little.]
[The guy who also knew--or at least suspected--that he had ghost abilities. He doesn't push because... well, he's "strange" himself, and he knows what it's like. Also, because he knows enough to cover for Danny if he ever needs to.
The answer from Danny makes Don chuckle slightly.]
I got stuck in 15 century earth fighting a sorcerer. And zombies, giant cockroaches, and guy and a dragon that had fused into one being.
[A pause. He's... considering. And then doesn't say it.]
Another instance, too, but... I'd rather not talk about that.
[Danny chokes on a laugh. That sounded like one of his days.]
...When I was a kid Dad accidentally sent our house to another dimension for a week. And... I got stuck once in an alternate reality where Mom married a creep instead of Dad and I didn't exist.
...I prefer to believe that never happened.
[...Danny glances away uncomfortably, trying to figure out how to say this. And if he even wanted to say anything. After a long pause he continues softly.]
There... There was another time too. That sucked. That really, really sucked.
I'm sorry, Don. Raph told me what happened to you.
[And all other threads of the conversation fall away at that last fact. He knew that his brothers knew, that Raph had broken his promise to not tell anyone. But.. there were others beyond his brothers that knew?
He goes very quiet. And then gives off a bit of a bitter, tired laugh.]
... Yeah. T-That's the time that sucked for me. [He closes his eyes. And then, after a moment, he makes a guilty sounding comment.] ... It's selfish of me... but part of me wants to see that Mikey again.
...I couldn't blame you for that. [How could he, when sometimes he still wondered how the few survivors of that future were doing. Was Valerie still alive? How were the mutilated versions of all his enemies handling their afterlives. Did they even still exist, or had his decision to change the future made that reality vanish?]
I don't think anyone could.
And I don't know much. Raph just told me that there had been an accident with a time scepter. That you were stuck in a bad future.
....And - that you saw everyone die.
No one should ever have to see something like that happen. [No one else. Not ever.]
Then they were morons. And so was whoever who was supposed to be keeping an eye on it.
[Danny briefly imagined what it would be like to be trapped seeing those few moments between the explosion and Clockwork's appearance over and over again and shivers. His dreams right afterwards had been bad enough, even knowing none of it had happened, would happen in his own future.]
The Time Scepter had a mind of its own. Lord Simultaneous wasn't too worried.
[He's quiet again, then sighs.]
... Yeah. [Donny doesn't know what to say beyond that.] .. I-I'm kinda glad you know, though. Outside of my family-- [That includes April. Kinda includes Casey, but Case isn't the type for this sort of thing.] --you'd be the first I'd tell.
Obviously it didn't have a very good mind of its own if it thought that was a good idea. At least when Cl- Um, never mind.
[Great, way to lay on the guilt. An interesting mix of expressions flicker across Danny's face. Guilt, sadness, determination, self-hatred, remembered pain and horror, fear... Suddenly Danny felt like the most awful hypocrite, even though he knew that keeping his own trip to the future to himself was the right thing to do. It was his own fault, and his own responsibility. No one else needed to know. Not even Jazz knew the full story.]
There's always hope. No matter what, there's always hope.
[He nods.] I'll.. try to keep the "line" open, I-I guess. I've only told Raph a little, only told him once... but... [He's just quiet.] I'll try to.. work through it, I guess.
[A blink, and then Donatello surprises himself with a laugh.]
... Okay, okay. I won't blame myself.
[And he doesn't hesitate.]
Then don't be alone. If Raph told you what happened to me, and thought it was appropriate, then you're pretty much extended family. Don't think we really have room in the apartment for you permanently, but you're welcome to sleep over.
[Don pauses for a moment, then rubs his neck awkwardly, looking a bit sheepish.]
I'll try not to wake you up with nightmares. But.. if Raph's told people, they're going to start pestering me, and I'm going to have to start telling them stuff. Means I should be getting better, right?
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Date: 2010-05-30 04:36 pm (UTC)[video, 99% locked]
Date: 2010-05-30 05:50 pm (UTC)There's now way in shell you can blame yourself for this. And I'm your friend, Danny--you don't have to put up your guard around me.
I want to be there for you, if you'll let me.
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Date: 2010-05-30 06:16 pm (UTC)Sorry, Don. I guess it's a habit.
But, thanks.
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Date: 2010-05-30 06:25 pm (UTC)... Heh. A habit--Leo does that sort of stuff, too.
[And so does Don, but Don's in denial about that right now.]
... I miss Master Splinter. And I know he can take care of himself but... Can't help but be worried, you know? And I can't help but miss him, even though I know he's better off at home. You probably feel the same, right?
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Date: 2010-05-30 06:29 pm (UTC)[She could take care of her self. He knew that. But... there were dangers at home she DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT. It was asking way too much that Vlad would miss out on taking advantage of his absence.]
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Date: 2010-05-30 08:18 pm (UTC)... And when you leave here, you'll be returned to the very moment you left. People just say that, but Leo and Raph experienced that. It'll be okay.
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Date: 2010-05-30 08:26 pm (UTC)...I hate time travel.
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Date: 2010-05-31 03:47 am (UTC)... ... You've had problems with time travel before as well? [This is Donny's "Hey, me too" voice.]
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Date: 2010-05-31 04:01 am (UTC)[Danny's first instinct was to instantly deny everything. But then he remembered. This was Donny. The guy who knew more about him than anyone else in Discedo. And who knew there was something weird about him, but hadn't pushed at all.
...And who he had just promised to stop pushing away so much. Maybe it would be okay to let him know a little.]
Um, something like that.
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Date: 2010-06-01 03:19 am (UTC)The answer from Danny makes Don chuckle slightly.]
I got stuck in 15 century earth fighting a sorcerer. And zombies, giant cockroaches, and guy and a dragon that had fused into one being.
[A pause. He's... considering. And then doesn't say it.]
Another instance, too, but... I'd rather not talk about that.
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Date: 2010-06-01 03:28 am (UTC)...When I was a kid Dad accidentally sent our house to another dimension for a week. And... I got stuck once in an alternate reality where Mom married a creep instead of Dad and I didn't exist.
...I prefer to believe that never happened.
[...Danny glances away uncomfortably, trying to figure out how to say this. And if he even wanted to say anything. After a long pause he continues softly.]
There... There was another time too. That sucked. That really, really sucked.
I'm sorry, Don. Raph told me what happened to you.
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Date: 2010-06-01 03:42 am (UTC)He goes very quiet. And then gives off a bit of a bitter, tired laugh.]
... Yeah. T-That's the time that sucked for me. [He closes his eyes. And then, after a moment, he makes a guilty sounding comment.] ... It's selfish of me... but part of me wants to see that Mikey again.
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Date: 2010-06-01 03:55 am (UTC)I don't think anyone could.
And I don't know much. Raph just told me that there had been an accident with a time scepter. That you were stuck in a bad future.
....And - that you saw everyone die.
No one should ever have to see something like that happen. [No one else. Not ever.]
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Date: 2010-06-01 04:11 am (UTC)Not accident. The two with the time scepter did it on purpose.
[And he's quiet again.]
... Y-yeah. And I keep on seeing it again.
[... he should be upset that Raph told people. But he's just... relieved.]
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Date: 2010-06-01 04:25 am (UTC)[Danny briefly imagined what it would be like to be trapped seeing those few moments between the explosion and Clockwork's appearance over and over again and shivers. His dreams right afterwards had been bad enough, even knowing none of it had happened, would happen in his own future.]
...Man, that sucks.
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Date: 2010-06-01 04:38 am (UTC)The Time Scepter had a mind of its own. Lord Simultaneous wasn't too worried.
[He's quiet again, then sighs.]
... Yeah. [Donny doesn't know what to say beyond that.] .. I-I'm kinda glad you know, though. Outside of my family-- [That includes April. Kinda includes Casey, but Case isn't the type for this sort of thing.] --you'd be the first I'd tell.
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Date: 2010-06-01 04:53 am (UTC)[Great, way to lay on the guilt. An interesting mix of expressions flicker across Danny's face. Guilt, sadness, determination, self-hatred, remembered pain and horror, fear... Suddenly Danny felt like the most awful hypocrite, even though he knew that keeping his own trip to the future to himself was the right thing to do. It was his own fault, and his own responsibility. No one else needed to know. Not even Jazz knew the full story.]
I...
You shouldn't..
[...]
Thanks for trusting me, Don.
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Date: 2010-06-01 04:58 am (UTC)[He's quiet.. and then he smiles softly. He's too emotionally exhausted to really notice the flickers of emotion across Danny's face or analyze them.]
No problem. ... Heh. You deserve to know. You're one of the people that's been helping me keep it together.
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Date: 2010-06-01 05:06 am (UTC)That's the thing about the future. Nothing is inevitable. Not even when they think they are.
I... No problem. We're friends, right? I want to do anything I can to help.
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Date: 2010-06-01 05:12 am (UTC)There's always hope. No matter what, there's always hope.
[He nods.] I'll.. try to keep the "line" open, I-I guess. I've only told Raph a little, only told him once... but... [He's just quiet.] I'll try to.. work through it, I guess.
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Date: 2010-06-01 05:20 am (UTC)[video, 99% locked]
Date: 2010-06-01 02:45 pm (UTC)[Donatello's silent for a few moments. When he speaks again, his voice is gentle, quiet, guilty.]
... I'm sorry if I'm one of the causes.
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Date: 2010-06-01 02:52 pm (UTC)I just... its going to be tough to get used to being alone again.
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Date: 2010-06-01 03:05 pm (UTC)... Okay, okay. I won't blame myself.
[And he doesn't hesitate.]
Then don't be alone. If Raph told you what happened to me, and thought it was appropriate, then you're pretty much extended family. Don't think we really have room in the apartment for you permanently, but you're welcome to sleep over.
[Don pauses for a moment, then rubs his neck awkwardly, looking a bit sheepish.]
I'll try not to wake you up with nightmares. But.. if Raph's told people, they're going to start pestering me, and I'm going to have to start telling them stuff. Means I should be getting better, right?
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